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I’m gonna do the 30 day letter challenge. I feel like it’ll be a good way to get some stuff off my chest that I’ve been wanting to sat.

“Ali and Sanaubar had little in common, least of all their respective appearances. While Sanaubar’s brilliant green eyes and impish face had, rumor has it, tempted countless men into sin, Ali had a congenital paralysis of his lower facial muscles, a condition that rendered him unable to smile and left him perpetually grim-faced. It was an odd thing to see the stone-faced Ali happy, or sad, because only his slanted brown eyes glinted with a smile or welled with sorrow. People say that eyes are windows to the soul. Never was that more true than with Ali, who could only reveal himself through his eyes.” -The Kite Runner

I love this book so much. Btw this “These are a few of my favorite things…” blogs are going to be a series of at least 12 blogs. :]

The snow is so freaking beautiful! :D

list of topics:

1. COLTS ARE GOING TO THE SUPERBOWLLLL!!!!
2. I FREAKING LOVE MY NEW PHONE!!!!!
3. “Letter to me”
4. Snowcoming
5. Happiness is awesome.

okay, so the first thing i’m planning to talk about, as you can see, is THE COLTS WINNING AND GOING TO THE SUPERBOWLLLLLL!!!!!!!! if you can’t tell, i’m pretty freaking stoked. :] they have worked soooo hard and it’s awesome to see that hard work pay off! Jim Caldwell has done an awesome job this year. I love Tony Dungy, and he will always be the best coach in my mind, but Caldwell has started off pretty well. :] Keep it up boys! lets go all the way! SUPERBOWL 2010 IS OURS!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

I got a new phone, thank you Jenifer! :] i love her! Her name is Emma… i’m working on a middle name… Franke. :D Touch screen front, QWERTY keyboard inside. i love her!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

I was listening to the radio the other day and on came the song Letter to Me by Brad Paisley. It’s one of my favorite Brad songs ever. It’s so well written, and it come from the heart. it’s really what he would do if he could write a letter and “send it back in time to myself at 17” as he says in the song. It’s a very moving and impowering song to me. gives me hope that all this will make sense one day. some day in the future i’ll look back on these days of my high school career, and understnad why everything happened. i’ll know why i feel the way i do, do the things i do, and am afraid of the things that scare me most. that excites me. if gives me hope. it pushes me on. Thank you Brad. For writing, and singing that song.

I’m pretty stoked to be going to snowcoming with Cait Malloy. :] And of course the fact that all of CT is going together makes it even better! this makes pProm seem like it’s going to be absolutely amazing!! i can’t wait! :D

Lastly, Happiness is awesome. There are several reason’s i should be happy, and i know that. Some of them are better, and more amazing than others, but just knowing that everything has turned out like it has makes me feel amazingly awesome! thank you for everything peeps. CT i love you guys. You’ve helped me feel this way, i hope you continue to for years to come!

“Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.” -Ashley Smith

thehumansoulonfire:

Ow OW!

 jealousy. thats what i feel. lolz.

O CAPTAIN! my Captain! our fearful trip is done; 
The ship has weather’d every rack, the prize we sought is won; 
The port is near, the bells I hear, the people all exulting, 
While follow eyes the steady keel, the vessel grim and daring:     
                But O heart! heart! heart!           
                  O the bleeding drops of red,         
                    Where on the deck my Captain lies,           
                        Fallen cold and dead. 

O Captain! my Captain! rise up and hear the bells; 
Rise up—for you the flag is flung—for you the bugle trills; 
For you bouquets and ribbon’d wreaths—for you the shores a-crowding; 
For you they call, the swaying mass, their eager faces turning;     
                  Here Captain! dear father!       
                    This arm beneath your head;         
                        It is some dream that on the deck,         
                            You’ve fallen cold and dead.  

My Captain does not answer, his lips are pale and still; 
My father does not feel my arm, he has no pulse nor will; 
The ship is anchor’d safe and sound, its voyage closed and done; 
From fearful trip, the victor ship, comes in with object won;    
                     Exult, O shores, and ring, O bells!       
                        But I, with mournful tread,         
                          Walk the deck my Captain lies,           
                             Fallen cold and dead.

                                                          -Walt Whitman

i hate this. i want to be someone who gets a bunch of parts that are “small parts” (*in a mocking voice* “there are no small parts, only small actors.”) and is perfectly happy, but i’m not. i hate this feeling. i don’t think i’m freaking amazing. i know i’m not the best, but i wish that i could have something. i want to have more than 5 lines and be in more than one scene. take that back, i just want to be able to show my talent. not that i want to be the star and show everone that i’m amazing, i just want to be dramatic. i hate that we’re doing a comedy. i’m not excited for this play right now. i’m sure i’lll warm up to it, but i hate it right now. i don’t like the genre. i don’t like the casting. i don’t like it. i hope that i get into Anderson and i get into the Theatre stuff there, and we get to do dramatic stuff. i want to scream and cry. i want to have to have emotion. i want to do something that makes people think and feel something. i want to do a show that make people cry. something that will have an effect on someone’s life. something like Bang Bang You’re Dead or The Laramie Project. it doesn’t even have to go that far, it could be something less deep. something like Hamlet. i just want people to feel something from our shows. i hate that we always just want to make people laugh. why is laughter our main focus??? i mean i love laughing. i think it’s a very important thing to do EVERY SINGLE DAY of you’re life, but that doesn’t mean we have to give them that bit of laughter. even when we did a “dark” serious show, it was funny. i mean Night of the Living Dead was dramatic, but it made people laugh a lot too. and outside of the nightmeres kids had, we didn’t leave an impression on people i don’t think. they didn’t find some moral. they didn’t have to feel anything. i want to say i do the Theatre stuff and when people ask what show we’re doing next. i don’t want to hear “oh! that should be fun!” when i tell them. i want them to say something like “that’ll be intense.” i just want to do something that will leave an impression on people. uuuhhh… okay i’m done complaining now. i just had to get that off my chest. let me think of something happy now. hhhhmmmmm…. oh! i got it! i’m getting a new phone tomorrow. The Voyager. it’s actually used, but whatever. it’s good enough for me. :D okay, well i’m super excited and i’m going to love the touch screenness! :D :D :D :D